Brainerd's Further Panting's
November 28.--In my evening devotion, I enjoyed precious discoveries of God, and was unspeakably refreshed with that passage, Hebrews xii. 22, 23, 24; my soul longed to wing its way to the paradise of God; I longed to be conformed to God in all things. A day or two after, I enjoyed much of the light of God's countenance, most of the day; and my soul rested in Him.
Posted on September 28 2008@17:47 by Deejay
Tuesday, October, 21.--I had likewise experience of the goodness of God in shedding abroad His love in my heart, and giving me delight and consolation in religious duties; and all the remaining part of the week, my soul seemed to be taken up with divine things. I now so longed after God, and to be freed from sin, that, when I felt myself recovering, and thought, I must return to college again, which had proved so hurtful to my spiritual interest the year past, I could not but be grieved, and thought I would much rather have died; for it distressed me to think of any departure from God. But, before I went, I enjoyed several other sweet and precious seasons of communion with God, particularly October 30, and November 4, wherein my soul enjoyed unspeakable comfort.
Posted on July 18 by Deejay
Monday, October 20: I again experienced the assistance of the Holy Spirit in secret duties, both morning and evening, and life and comfort in religion throughout the whole day.
Posted by Deejay: July 11@02:18
Lord's Day, October 19, in the morning, I felt my soul hungering and thirsting after righteousness. In the forenoon while I was looking on the sacramental elements, and thinking that Jesus Christ would soon be set forth crucified before me, my soul was filled with light and love, so that I was almost in an ecstasy; my body was so weak, I could barely stand. I felt at the same time, an exceeding tenderness and most fervent love towards all mankind; so that my soul and all its powers seemed, as it were, to melt into sweetness and softness. But in the season of the communion there was some abatement of this life and fervor; nevertheless my soul longed for perfect grace and glory. This heavenly frame continued till the evening, when my soul was sweetly spiritual in secret duties.
Saturday, October 18, in my morning devotions, my soul was exceedingly melted, and I bitterly mourned over my exceeding sinfulness and vileness. I never before had felt so pungent and deep a sense of the odious nature of sin as at this time. My soul was then unusually carried forth in love to God, and had a lively sense of God's love to me; and this love and hope, at that time, cast out fear. Both morning and evening I spent some time in self-examination, to find the truth of grace, as also my fitness to approach to God at His table the next day; and through infinite mercy found the Holy Spirit influencing my soul with love to God, as a witness within myself.
